Social Conduit

Fun-O-Rama was on the 29th of March, and I went back to ACJC to meet up with my class people. It was really nice to see everyone again, even though parts of me were battling the flight reactions to going. Going proved to not too bad, with the expected awkward conversations and meetings not going as disastrous as imagined. The games however seemed to disappoint, with none in particular grabbing my attention.

But one must wonder what are the social reasons for these events. Giant meeting places for awareness and recollection? Possibly to reminisce about your times or to see what you missed out on. Either way it seems to be a social "dance" where people seem to waltzing to an unknown tune. Each person tiptoeing around in hopes to find the common tune of life but yet never knowing if they are truly part of the choreography. So would it be a better idea to just dance to your own tune and see if people follow you from there.

Random thought: I liked our year's shirt better

Obsession

Recently in life tendrils of obsession has bee creeping into my life. It serves as a double edged sword, giving me a vice to live by as well as a purpose and identity. Strangely enough it is these obsessions that seem to shape who we are, and out stands in life.

Obsession creates hype. In this era of the internet, obsession causes interest to explode. Advertising and anticipation no longer occurs in the mass media. Rather is occurs in the forums as people discuss the happenings in things happening in real life, or that portrayed on television. This constant discussion gives people a place to belong in the phenomena that is happening and creates the hype that drives them and increase expectations. So the question is, does obsession compel people to like something, or does it just build them up for the fall

Currently obsessed with:
Gundam 00 Carameldansen



Random thought: If Angeal and Genesis didnt leave would Sephiroth still have tried to destroy the world? Maybe he just needed a friend

Love

Love is when your willing to gouge out a part of your heart so that the person can always be with you. To forever remember the person and the feelings you felt for them. Love is being willing to live with that hole in your heart, even when the person is gone.

Random thought: The best books are the ones you can't bear to put down

Feeding off the Frenzy

Recently i been buying anime merchandise a bit too freely. Like suddenly i bought a gundam kit, a bleach figurine box, and a gundam 00 figurine box and a bleach substitute shinigami plate. Some thing inside me seems to feel happy when i buy these things, sort of like my retail therapy. Of course most of these are driven by my desire to convert these things, like this. It is to become my new belt buckle, hopefully when i have time to convert it.

But the thing is, everywhere you go, there seems to be companies capitalizing on people's obsessions and likes. From books to movies, movies to merchandise, ideas and designs are being taken and overused till they become too common place and it loses its appeal, degrading the original idea. After a while it just becomes sad. But its common place for this to occur. Lives are driven by profit so companies mass produce them to earn the dollar by the masses. And consumers only buy with the hype or when the prices are low. Companies even create cheap items to placate this feeding ignoring quality, thus flooding the markets with legal "cheap imitations". And we the consumer gobble it up. When does it actually end and when do we remember the actual idea of it all.

Home

Boy Melbourne was hot, it was worse than Singapore with more like a dry heat. Could literally feel the sun drying out your skin. The trip was nice and the experience was really different. The whole lifestyle there is so much more relaxed and everyone was so much more friendly. Especially my brother's friends from planetshakers church. They really made me feel super welcomed over there and like it was really cool cause they were like super close and were at each other's place like every night. Makes me kinda jealous... why aint my life like that. Part of me came up with possibly i lack a sort of self identity, like not stable enough in my personality and such.

Speaking of self identity, going over to Melbourne made me realize how important culture. When i was over there is was like i wasn't really Singaporean-ish and like it made me realize the lack of knowledge i have about Singaporean like culture, not the ancient one but more of like now-a-days. Like how did that happen? Did part of me get trampled in the wave of cultural propagation in the media? And what happens now? If u strive to be more Singaporean, doesn't that defeat the purpose of it.

Currently listening to: Ash like snow (Gundam 00 OP2)
Random Thought: Cinnamon is now my favorite ice cream flavour

In Melbourne

In Melbourne
It swings from cold to hot, the cold is really nice
RMIT is like super scattered around
Food here is like expensive T.T but some is really good
I got to see Andrea! WHEE damn nice to see her again la
Anime stuff here sucks, theres like barely any at all
My mum's acting possessive, and crazy
I'm feeding off my brothers space and bandwidth, nuff said

Random thought: Both Singapore and Melbourne have good points

Quantum

Somewhere in life, i just kinda started to quantize my life into portions. Its kinda weird but i started to see my life in little blocks of time then i had allocated to do things. This because even more apparent when i went into army especially after time seemed to stretch and the days seemed to have more time in them. Its gotten so separated that night events don't seem to have much effect on what happens in my day anymore, like today. Tonight I'm flying off to Melbourne to do my Uni stuff, visit my brother and visit Andrea, but like there not the crazy anticipation that i used to have when i was a kid.
After a while i kinda wonder if this is sort of helping me to become more efficient, like being able to maximizes my time or is it making me dead to more things as I start to sterilizes parts of my life from each other. Even more scarily, is it making me act differently around different people, sort of like segregated personalities as well?
Quantum: The smallest amount of a physical quantity that can exist independently & amount of energy regarded as a unit

Random thought: Time as a form of energy?
In "Full Metal Alchemist", souls are equivalently energy, and so once separated from physical form, is it not the time it spend developing that should be what gives it its energy

Insanity

The world is based on insanity. Every part of life is just one crazy lurch to the next part, much like walking*. Out of all things love is potentially the most insane. As it is, it is the one thing that manages to compel people to do things that they won't normally do, and has the ability to influence people's lives the most. Much things done for a person or even relationships are based on attraction, be it physical or otherwise. And sometime even though there are motives, it leads to something better. But this insanity is what actually makes life worth living. The journey is always more interesting than the story, often with the story being simplified to exclude the crazy parts of life. So something one should just see love for what it is, a Dali roller coaster that helps us to understand life. (Inspired by "Leap Years" movie)
*walking is merely a controlled sequence of falls

Random though: Appreciate the journey and just forget the happy ending

Reasons

Ok, one more shot at this. This is actually my third blog that I've done, the first 2 failed horribly T.T... So anyway, the purpose of this blog is to kinda be my online portfolio and my place for musing. Lets hope i have the drive and work to keep this one up and running this time. Post comments if u like, it'll let me know I'm not writing to a void. Stay tuned for portfolio coming up, after i finish photoshopping them.

Random thought: Why is it when your nowhere near a computer u can think of so many things to blog about.