Craving

I'm like so pregnant. In the past week or so I have been getting weird cravings for food. Its like i can taste it but yet its not complete. In the past weekend i have like finished a 6 pack of melon flavored vitasoy. Its odd. The entire craving boils down to the first sip. In the first sip the cool liquid hits your tongue and like the craving is so worth is. The as it progresses its seems to loose its "power". The craving makes it taste extra special but its seems to never be able to be fully satisfied.

Is it because we just seem to remember the good things that we encounter? Is it such a folly of mankind to have such selective memory? Or is it just that we seem to give into the slightest desire that we encounter. Do our cravings define us, to shape our personality as we battle to overcome and to shape the kind of person we are by our likes and dislikes? But for one thing, if it does drive us does that mean that it is a good thing to have?

Random thought: Fake melon flavor with milk taste fake, but oh so good

I love my saw

I swear, my saw's the best investment i made. It cuts so much faster than by hand! Though i have already almost cut of my finger multiple times when the wood jumped.

Yesh i am wearing protective stuff, glasses and mask. It is quite scary when your blade snaps mid cut.

And by far the oddest thing i do while doing all this. I blast phantom of the opera really loud in the upstairs room, while working in it. I mean who listens to phantom which operating machinery. oh oh me me!!!

Random thought: What happens if Raoul was a scumbag? Whirlwind romances don't actually let you know much about the other person

Fakey

Back to the topic of portfolios and projects, some people have commented that the pics i put up look fake. Well they are kinda real, cept that they have been photoshopped like hell and i kinda have a problem of not knowing when to stop. So I'm posting up one of my own raw photos so you can kinda have a comparison.





I'm still wondering if i should tweak it a bit, like just to show that I' not a noob at photoshop. But does that tweaking extend to the composition? or just the color and contrast.

On a side note, is it possible for a person to truly not be themselves? Even if the person is acting or putting on a facade, there will still be quirks or intricacies that will be unique to the person. Granted that the personality on the whole will be fake, but would not the way that fake-ness is portrayed be of the person himself?

Random thought: I got 11.51 for my 2.4!!!

Et Tu Brutus?

The only thing i could thing of while cutting these.




I have finally started construction of my props for cosfest 08! By Gawds I'm slow. My room is slowly regaining its clutter and its fine coating of sawdust. For like more updates on the props please go my livejournal, http://etherical.livejournal.com/ . The layout kinda sucks but i don't know how to change that yet so bear with it. OH AND ADD ME IF U HAVE A LIVEJOURNAL ACCOUNT!

Random Thought: Is sawdust hazardous? Does it get stuck in your lungs?

Cocoon

Society is based on social relationships and it is these relationships that make life so complicated. Every person is different and every person compensates for someone else. In life, people often have different groups of friends, each with different interest. The person then alters his own "image" so as to suit the group. As we progress in life the alterations increase and this causes a strain in maintaining a personality as well as social web of connection.

As one progresses. These crystalline webs increase and hopefully the bond grows stronger. However, sometimes the differences between you and the group are too great. Be it habits, upbringing or simply distance. And sometime you cannot bear the tension and your whole crystalline system decides to come crashing down.

In trying to fit in you try to shape yourself and alter that single thread not knowing the strain it puts on the entire social system with in yourself. Once in a while the whole crystal system breaks and the suddenly your not sure who you really are anymore and if its right to fit yourself into the mold of the group.

Random thought: To which pipers' tunes do you dance to

Reasons

These are the reasons why you don't see me around.
These are the reason why sometimes i cant hang out.
These are the reason I'm slowly dieing, both physically and mentally.
So please comment and tell me which is better. I need to do these for portfolio. Please bear in mind better also means does not look fake

Empress disassemble 1



Empress disassemble 2



My prop pictures will slowly be coming up this way. So I'll be needing comments for a few more times when I'm done.

Random thought: Why do things always seems more perfect when someone else does it