T-shirts

FINALLY!
I have sent my army team t-shirts for printing. Thats one thing off my to do list. I have burn so damn much time on doing those designs... i had better get some off days for all that work.

Its an asphalt dragon





On the plus side I now know Auntie Nelly better so hopefully i can start printing my own shirts now. Its strange, you can never find one that suits you perfectly, so the best is just to print your own.

The cool thing is that she made my bear poster (see below) into somewhat of a shirt. Thats quite cool. If anyone ever sees it help me get a pic of it.






One down, a bajillion more things to do

Torn

If u do something right for the wrong reason does it still mean the same thing?

If you help a person with external motivation
If your facade is good for fear of judgment
If you let people in so you don't feel lonely
If you really love someone to fill the hole in your life
If you believe in God for fear of eternal damnation

When is it still right and when does it become wrong?
If you can actually relate to this, how many people next to you are going through the same thoughts. Better yet, how many don't care.

Why is it only when I'm most busy my social life picks up

Heritage

Recently, well not recently, i went to the peranakan museum that just recently opened. The exhibits really blew my mind. The craftsmanship in those days really are on a different level. Its amazing what they could do in those days. I finally managed to get the pictures from my sister's camera so here they are.

These are window grills, carved like bamboo and seeming in-layed with like gold, or glitz at least




This is PART of a giant tapestry. See the workmanship? Now multiply that many many times. There are tons of these beaded work there.




These are my favorite. The jewelery in the day were really intricate and fine. They even did things like "bleach" gold in assam to make it red gold. Mel u would really love to see the jewelery there.(If your reading this its both extremely cool and scary)





The weird thing is that after i learnt about my heritage I'm really divided. I' raised in a environment that favors sleek and simple designs, but the peranakan designs seem really cool, even though their color schemes are extremely gaudy and neon. To be inspired by the different? To incorporate gaudy neon into sleek?

Random Thought: Why are our crafts dieing out in this age

Relativity

Time is relative. But what is it relative to. In my case it sees to be deadlines. There seems to be a compression and decompression of time when it draws closer to my deadlines, as I see the guillotines draw closer. Could procrastination and quantum be related? As one is far from the deadline less "timeblocks" are given to work and more to oh so joyous randomness. Then as the deadline draws near all life is dropped away for work. I ish going to be having no life T.T

The strange thing is that it seems that i still have time to spare, like sometimes i cannot figure out what i need to do at that moment and like end up doing random things. And it could be cumulative but when people ask me if i have time to do more projects i seem to think so, i hope i don't disappoint. And then the horror is that the projects all gang up on you and demand to be finished around the same times T.T

Random thought: Pls call me out when u don't see me for too long, i may have died in my room

Purge

Once again i have formatted my com. It contracted a virus due to my lack of anti virus software and kinda made everything super uber laggy, till the point i couldn't stand it. So basically i dragged my stuff onto my non-portable external hard drive ( my portable one is making clicking sounds and is due to be buried soon) and am in the mids of re-installing everything. The strange thing is that whenever i format my com it will seem to act differently, like some minor things just cant be the same no matter how much i try and change it. Its like the system locked me out for some reason.

But the feeling of a purged computer is nice (when the installation was not mood-ish). Everything run so smoothly. Its just something about perfection that draws people, be it in design or otherwise. Ironically this is the very thing that can hinder progress. To want to make each detail a prefect piece in the ever evolving puzzle. My blog for example. Many a times i wanted to wipe a clean to have it 'perfect' but that in itself would never let it actually become a blog because it would permanently be in a stage of infancy. Sometime you just got to appreciate the perfection in imperfection.

Random thoughts (theres a few cause i was away for a while)
"Old chiang kee is now so damn expensive"
"Mifune from Soul Eater is damn cool, i wanna figurine of him!"
"After 2 cups of alcohol i tend to get a bit high"
"I miss having Andrea around"
"Building a good Gundam Figurine is much harder that expected"