i really need to edit this more

my brain is like focal point for the universes wired ideas.Its like all the ideas channel themself into my brain and keep yelling to be done. The only thing is that a lot of things seem impossible. Not that I'm complaining, I wouldn't have it any other way. It the impossible that i like to do. Only wish i had more time and motivation to do them

can ham be overcooked?

i think i'll be electrocuting myself soon.
i forgot all the electrical stuff i learnt

Reading... its good for you

I GOT THE NEW PRATCHETT BOOK!!!
May be MIA for a while

bye

my precious....

Laggggg

Apparently i been AFK for too long.
After some prompting from Ellen I kinda remembered that i should be updating this blog of mine.
Kinda figure i should make some changes to the reason for the blog.
Originally its supposed to be like my online portfolio (like my bro's, its imbal) but my projects take too long to do and i dont have time to update when I'm actually doing them so.... yeah....
Been focusing more on my lj, somehow its more userfriendly with the like can see everyone's from one page (except their spell check is annoying)
Now i figure that this will be just more bout my life, kinda was in the first place.
Heres to hoping i update more

i is liking my new logitech headphones. Now i understand the need for good sound quality. So good it bleeds from your ear

Plans

Plans for my birthday

• Go shopping for clothes (I missed the whole GSS T.T)
• Splurge buying cheese (any recommendations pls say *looks at lindis and gwee*)
• Watch Starship troopers 3!!!
• Shopping for hobbies....i need my high
• NATAS fair? plan to go japan in jan!
  
• Not go work!
  

I hope i can do all this at least

If your buying me presents, think of clothes and like fashion

Malable

Is my personality that weak?
Do I change to suit the people around me?
Part of me is scared to say no because its worried about what others think.
Its scared that its judged by what it can bring to the table.
If I'm of no use will you still be my friend

why the heck do i feel so damn emo

its not over

My post seem to be inversely proportional to the projects i'm doing
No i'm not free, i got more stuff to do
Less talky more worky

I ISH MAKING PROPS TO REPRESENT SINGAPORE IN THE WORLD COSPLAY SUMMIT.
how cool is that

i have so much to write but i loose all motivation when i actually start typing

Its over!

OMG, I'm finally free!
Cosfest is over
Project finished post will come soon, be patient
I need to sleep

Havent eaten properly for 3 days, then suddenly i;m eating. I just may get gout or something

TOYS

I went to the Toy and Comic convention on Sunday and I now have a hole in my pocket.
But I not have a Cerberus replica! *laughs evilly* Aint it pretty. I'm still wondering if i should unbox it.





On another note, I found a comic shop that stocks the "Rising Stars" comic. Like BEST COMIC EVAR.

Cons are crowded stuffy jostling places of compressed happiness

Social Displacement

Its weird.
You want to fit in, but your not sure how.
People try to fit you in, but you run.
You want to change, but your not sure if you should.

Sometime you just feel socially displaced in a group and it sucks.
You wonder what your doing wrong.
You feel your friends are occupied and you dont want to disturb them
You wonder what the hell your doing there

It just sucks


OMG cosfest in one week! I NEED TO BE PAINTING

Worst day evar

Crater sucked.
May not get off before cosfest.
Came home to sucky food.
Mum got angry when i tried joking with her.
Life sucks.

Level Up

110608 xp gained!

LEVEL UP!

Expand "Crater Repair" skill tree?

You have learnt "Hot Asphalt"

Ability Info:
You are now able to use blazing hot black chemical rocks in crater repair.Hardens into a flat surface if cast effectively.
MP cost: High
Casting time: Long
Status induced: Poison by fumes & Melting footwear

yeah, i did my first hot asphalt today

Sick

Its was my off day yesterday and i got a fever...A FEVER.... its like the ultimate illness to report sick for, syn toms are constant and detectable, sure to get mc for it... and i get it on my off day... Gawds

so anyway, today was a mess of the cold, head rattling in my skull, and lethargy... lousy day

Portfolio

FINALLY!!!
My portfolio is up !
Ok less talky more pictures





















Obsession with death fiction

Hide and go seek

The point of hide and seek is to be found. Theres no point in being a perfect hider. It just spoils your fun. The seeker is not actually the role people actually want to have in the game, but seemingly, it is the most fun (and exasperating) at times. The only interaction is between the seeker and the people's that found. Other than that if you are hider, most of your game is spent alone in some dark corner. The better you are at that, the more alone you are. Simply put utilizing your skill requires you to be alone.

Socially, its similar to life. If your the best hider, you alone but what you produce is great. If your the best seeker, your art is in performance and people see you as you work. People see the whole time the person is seeking but the only see the time when the hider is found.

Food and glue on hands = poison

T-shirts

FINALLY!
I have sent my army team t-shirts for printing. Thats one thing off my to do list. I have burn so damn much time on doing those designs... i had better get some off days for all that work.

Its an asphalt dragon





On the plus side I now know Auntie Nelly better so hopefully i can start printing my own shirts now. Its strange, you can never find one that suits you perfectly, so the best is just to print your own.

The cool thing is that she made my bear poster (see below) into somewhat of a shirt. Thats quite cool. If anyone ever sees it help me get a pic of it.






One down, a bajillion more things to do

Torn

If u do something right for the wrong reason does it still mean the same thing?

If you help a person with external motivation
If your facade is good for fear of judgment
If you let people in so you don't feel lonely
If you really love someone to fill the hole in your life
If you believe in God for fear of eternal damnation

When is it still right and when does it become wrong?
If you can actually relate to this, how many people next to you are going through the same thoughts. Better yet, how many don't care.

Why is it only when I'm most busy my social life picks up

Heritage

Recently, well not recently, i went to the peranakan museum that just recently opened. The exhibits really blew my mind. The craftsmanship in those days really are on a different level. Its amazing what they could do in those days. I finally managed to get the pictures from my sister's camera so here they are.

These are window grills, carved like bamboo and seeming in-layed with like gold, or glitz at least




This is PART of a giant tapestry. See the workmanship? Now multiply that many many times. There are tons of these beaded work there.




These are my favorite. The jewelery in the day were really intricate and fine. They even did things like "bleach" gold in assam to make it red gold. Mel u would really love to see the jewelery there.(If your reading this its both extremely cool and scary)





The weird thing is that after i learnt about my heritage I'm really divided. I' raised in a environment that favors sleek and simple designs, but the peranakan designs seem really cool, even though their color schemes are extremely gaudy and neon. To be inspired by the different? To incorporate gaudy neon into sleek?

Random Thought: Why are our crafts dieing out in this age

Relativity

Time is relative. But what is it relative to. In my case it sees to be deadlines. There seems to be a compression and decompression of time when it draws closer to my deadlines, as I see the guillotines draw closer. Could procrastination and quantum be related? As one is far from the deadline less "timeblocks" are given to work and more to oh so joyous randomness. Then as the deadline draws near all life is dropped away for work. I ish going to be having no life T.T

The strange thing is that it seems that i still have time to spare, like sometimes i cannot figure out what i need to do at that moment and like end up doing random things. And it could be cumulative but when people ask me if i have time to do more projects i seem to think so, i hope i don't disappoint. And then the horror is that the projects all gang up on you and demand to be finished around the same times T.T

Random thought: Pls call me out when u don't see me for too long, i may have died in my room