Social Displacement

Its weird.
You want to fit in, but your not sure how.
People try to fit you in, but you run.
You want to change, but your not sure if you should.

Sometime you just feel socially displaced in a group and it sucks.
You wonder what your doing wrong.
You feel your friends are occupied and you dont want to disturb them
You wonder what the hell your doing there

It just sucks


OMG cosfest in one week! I NEED TO BE PAINTING

Hide and go seek

The point of hide and seek is to be found. Theres no point in being a perfect hider. It just spoils your fun. The seeker is not actually the role people actually want to have in the game, but seemingly, it is the most fun (and exasperating) at times. The only interaction is between the seeker and the people's that found. Other than that if you are hider, most of your game is spent alone in some dark corner. The better you are at that, the more alone you are. Simply put utilizing your skill requires you to be alone.

Socially, its similar to life. If your the best hider, you alone but what you produce is great. If your the best seeker, your art is in performance and people see you as you work. People see the whole time the person is seeking but the only see the time when the hider is found.

Food and glue on hands = poison

Torn

If u do something right for the wrong reason does it still mean the same thing?

If you help a person with external motivation
If your facade is good for fear of judgment
If you let people in so you don't feel lonely
If you really love someone to fill the hole in your life
If you believe in God for fear of eternal damnation

When is it still right and when does it become wrong?
If you can actually relate to this, how many people next to you are going through the same thoughts. Better yet, how many don't care.

Why is it only when I'm most busy my social life picks up

Heritage

Recently, well not recently, i went to the peranakan museum that just recently opened. The exhibits really blew my mind. The craftsmanship in those days really are on a different level. Its amazing what they could do in those days. I finally managed to get the pictures from my sister's camera so here they are.

These are window grills, carved like bamboo and seeming in-layed with like gold, or glitz at least




This is PART of a giant tapestry. See the workmanship? Now multiply that many many times. There are tons of these beaded work there.




These are my favorite. The jewelery in the day were really intricate and fine. They even did things like "bleach" gold in assam to make it red gold. Mel u would really love to see the jewelery there.(If your reading this its both extremely cool and scary)





The weird thing is that after i learnt about my heritage I'm really divided. I' raised in a environment that favors sleek and simple designs, but the peranakan designs seem really cool, even though their color schemes are extremely gaudy and neon. To be inspired by the different? To incorporate gaudy neon into sleek?

Random Thought: Why are our crafts dieing out in this age

Fakey

Back to the topic of portfolios and projects, some people have commented that the pics i put up look fake. Well they are kinda real, cept that they have been photoshopped like hell and i kinda have a problem of not knowing when to stop. So I'm posting up one of my own raw photos so you can kinda have a comparison.





I'm still wondering if i should tweak it a bit, like just to show that I' not a noob at photoshop. But does that tweaking extend to the composition? or just the color and contrast.

On a side note, is it possible for a person to truly not be themselves? Even if the person is acting or putting on a facade, there will still be quirks or intricacies that will be unique to the person. Granted that the personality on the whole will be fake, but would not the way that fake-ness is portrayed be of the person himself?

Random thought: I got 11.51 for my 2.4!!!

Cocoon

Society is based on social relationships and it is these relationships that make life so complicated. Every person is different and every person compensates for someone else. In life, people often have different groups of friends, each with different interest. The person then alters his own "image" so as to suit the group. As we progress in life the alterations increase and this causes a strain in maintaining a personality as well as social web of connection.

As one progresses. These crystalline webs increase and hopefully the bond grows stronger. However, sometimes the differences between you and the group are too great. Be it habits, upbringing or simply distance. And sometime you cannot bear the tension and your whole crystalline system decides to come crashing down.

In trying to fit in you try to shape yourself and alter that single thread not knowing the strain it puts on the entire social system with in yourself. Once in a while the whole crystal system breaks and the suddenly your not sure who you really are anymore and if its right to fit yourself into the mold of the group.

Random thought: To which pipers' tunes do you dance to

Social Conduit

Fun-O-Rama was on the 29th of March, and I went back to ACJC to meet up with my class people. It was really nice to see everyone again, even though parts of me were battling the flight reactions to going. Going proved to not too bad, with the expected awkward conversations and meetings not going as disastrous as imagined. The games however seemed to disappoint, with none in particular grabbing my attention.

But one must wonder what are the social reasons for these events. Giant meeting places for awareness and recollection? Possibly to reminisce about your times or to see what you missed out on. Either way it seems to be a social "dance" where people seem to waltzing to an unknown tune. Each person tiptoeing around in hopes to find the common tune of life but yet never knowing if they are truly part of the choreography. So would it be a better idea to just dance to your own tune and see if people follow you from there.

Random thought: I liked our year's shirt better